Brown felt like ‘monster’ after Rihanna attack

CHRIS BROWN has spoken about the night he assaulted Rihanna — revealing the attack left him feeling like a ‘f***ing monster’.
The singer, 28, told documentary Chris Brown: Welcome to My Life, things turned violent when a woman he had slept with turned up at a Grammys party in 2009.
His confession about the fling came as a shock to then-girlfriend RiRi, 29, who tried to ‘kick him’.
Brown retaliated by punching the Barbadian star in the face — leaving her bloodied and with a split lip.
‘I really hit her, with a closed fist,’ he recalled. ‘When I saw it, I was like, “F***, why did I hit her?”’
He went on: ‘She spit blood in my face and it enraged me even more.’
Pictures of RiRi’s injuries ‘haunt me forever’, Brown said. ‘I look at that picture and I’m like, “That’s not me, bro”. I hate it to this day.’
Brown was put on probation for five years after admitting assault.
He ‘still loves’ RiRi but said the pair had a very violent relationship.
‘She would hit me, I would hit her,’ he added. ‘It was always a point to where we talk about it like, “What the f*** are we doing?”’
Author: Tom Stichbury